mercredi 18 juin 2008

Remembering Me

This morning I sat in a cafe near the PC Office and had a cafe au lait (really a latte, but doesn't matter) and a croissant and felt like myself again. It was incredible. So much so that I had to journal a little about it while sitting there, before another Volunteer came to join me for some breakfast and some encouraging words/suggestions for these first awkward months at site. I don't think that I realized how much I would miss sitting and leisurely drinking good coffee until right before I left DC to come here, but I do. It's a part of my own culture, as lame as that sounds, and something very difficult to enjoy in the "comfort" of my hut and village. It was incredible to have a chance to do something I loved doing before I came here and almost (but not quite) feel like myself again, something that is actually much harder to do than one may imagine.

Waking up early and doing it again before heading out of Dakar in the AM.

New York Times Article on Senegal

Shadows Grow Across One of Africa's Bright Lights By LYDIA POLGREENThe New York TimesJune 18, 2008

DAKAR, Senegal -- From the air, this sprawling city looks like a metropolis on the move, a buzzing quadrilateral jutting into the Atlantic. Cars speed along a supple, newly reconstructed four-lane highway that hugs the rugged coastline. Cranes dot the seaside, building luxury hotels and conference centers, as investors from Dubai revamp the city's port, hoping to transform it into a high-tech regional hub.

But on the ground the picture shifts. Jobless young men line the new highways, trying to scratch out a living by selling phone cards, cashews and Chinese-made calculators to passers-by. The port is full of imported food that is increasingly out of reach for most Senegalese.

Dakar will soon have a glut of five-star hotel rooms, but rising rents have pushed the city's poor and even middle-class residents into filthy, flood-prone slums. Shortages of fuel mean daily blackouts.

It is hard to escape a sense of malaise that has settled over Senegal, one of Africa's most stable and admired countries, a miasma of political, economic and social problems as unmistakable as the fine dust that blows in from the Sahara every winter, blotting out the sun with an ashy haze.

This month the sense of crisis reached a head, when a coalition of political and civic groups began a national conference to reassess the country's direction. The government, seeing it as a provocation, refused to participate.

All of which raises the question: If hardship and tension are vexing Senegal -- a former French colony that has never known a coup d'état or military rule, and for 48 years has been one of the most stable, peaceful and enduring democracies in a region so long beset by tyranny and strife -- what could that mean for its more troubled neighbors?

This question has become all the more pressing with the implosion of Kenya, once East Africa's oasis, into ethnically driven electoral violence earlier this year, and South Africa's recent descent into anti-immigrant rage.

Senegal's chattering class is increasingly worried that the country's long run of relatively good luck could also run out.

"After years of sunshine, we have so many clouds gathering over us in Senegal," said Abdoulaye Bathily, secretary general of Senegal's Movement for the Labor Party, one of the parties that joined with President Abdoulaye Wade's coalition in 2000 but have since broken with him. "We are lost, adrift. And if we can't make it, what country can?"

The political class is in seemingly permanent crisis. The grand coalition of opposition parties that brought Mr. Wade to office in 2000 after 40 years of Socialist rule has collapsed.

Most of the major parties sat out the 2007 legislative elections, so the National Assembly is made up almost exclusively of Mr. Wade's allies.

A series of squabbles within the governing party, along with the widespread speculation that Mr. Wade is grooming his son, Karim, as his successor, have also soured Senegal's longstanding reputation as a beacon of democracy in a region once plagued by authoritarianism.
Mr. Wade, an indefatigable octogenarian who was re-elected last year for a five-year term, has in many ways staked his legacy on the rebirth of Dakar from a quaint colonial city to a major regional center, a kind of mini-Dubai for West Africa. It is the bequest of an aging leader to a new generation of Senegalese, the men and women he calls the Generation of Concrete.

Mr. Wade put his son, a former banking executive in London, in charge of organizing the Islamic Summit, a meeting of heads of state of Muslim countries held here in March. The vast makeover of the city was supposed to be complete beforehand, but while most of the roads were finished, the hotels were not. The government rented private homes and cruise ships to house delegates and members of the news media.

Much of the work was paid for by Islamic donors, not the public, but little accounting has been given for the reconstruction projects.

When the speaker of the National Assembly tried to question the president's son about spending for the summit meeting, the speaker's party leadership position was abolished and the assembly introduced a bill to cut his term to a single year.

He later reconciled with the president, but such scandals have exacted a toll on the country's reputation. Once a darling of international donors, who have spent millions to help Senegal build schools and clinics, pay off its debts and plan infrastructure projects, the country has found itself criticized by representatives of the International Monetary Fund and the World Bank over public spending and policies that have worsened the effects of rising food prices.

A study commissioned by the United States Agency for International Development last year concluded that "a lack of transparency in public affairs and financial transactions, as well as chronic corruption, plague Senegal today."

Africa as a whole has been enjoying high economic growth rates, but in 2006 Senegal's economy grew by just over 2 percent. It has rebounded and is expected to reach 5.4 percent this year, but persistent unemployment and high food and fuel prices have blunted the benefits of growth for most people.

Above all, Senegal's people seem to have lost their seemingly endless optimism. A Gallup survey completed here last year found that only 29 percent of respondents said they had a job, down from 35 percent the previous year

Most telling, 56 percent of those surveyed said they would leave Senegal permanently if they could. In recent years, tens of thousands of Senegalese have boarded rickety wooden fishing boats to try to sneak into Europe. Many thousands are believed to have died in these perilous crossings.

This frustration has largely been turned against Mr. Wade, a longtime opposition figure who endured imprisonment and political isolation for decades before bringing his quirky blend of neo-liberal and Afro-optimist ideas to the presidential palace.

To his many fans, Mr. Wade is an updated version of the founding fathers who governed Africa in the years immediately after independence. His age is a closely guarded secret, but he is believed to be 82, which would make him almost old enough to have been a contemporary of Africa's early political giants, like Kwame Nkrumah of Ghana and Julius Nyerere of Tanzania.

El Hadji Amadou Sall, Mr. Wade's spokesman and a senior adviser, says that the government is already spending most of its budget on sectors that directly affect the poor, like health and schools, but that these are less visible than five-star hotels. Mr. Wade has also announced ambitious plans to boost food production.

Some Senegalese are pleased. Paco Demba Dia, a 39-year-old traditional wrestler, said seeing new roads and buildings gives him a sense of pride.
"In all those years, the Socialists never did anything like this for us," he said.

But to his critics, Mr. Wade has sullied Senegal's reputation and has consolidated power within his own family.

The discontent is keenest among young people, and their chosen mouthpieces: rap artists who have become the griots, or musical storytellers, of their generation, providing a soundtrack to their frustrations.

"We've been waiting 40 years for real change in this country," said Didier Awadi, a rapper whose rhymes in the Wolof language demanding change helped steer young people to vote the Socialist Party out of office in 2000. "But we are still waiting."

On one of the many billboards across the city welcoming the attendees of the Islamic Summit meeting, someone scrawled paint over Mr. Wade's face, writing: "We are hungry."

Indeed, many Senegalese wonder whether the money to rebuild the capital was well spent. Amadou Ndiaye, a hawker who sells cheap Chinese-made shoes on the sidewalk, said that little of the new construction will benefit him. He has no car, and the new roads don't go anywhere near his slum home.

"We can't eat roads," Mr. Ndiaye said. "We can't afford to sleep in five-star hotels. So for whom is all this? Not for the ordinary Senegalese man."

And the Sharet Sage Continues...

or is it charret?

Anyway, got xrays on my jaw...no breaks, fractures, anything. Actually, I almost wish the xrays had found something because then there could be a concrete treatment rather than general pain. Med told me that it will take awhile to heal (did Rose say "maybe years?" I sure hope not and will ask again) and they were going to pick me up some meds to help with the pain, but other than that, I get to continue having random pain while chewing, flossing, yawning, opening my mouth wide, etc, until the pain goes away (and from having to open it so much today with the drs and everything, it's still hurting quite a bit). Hopefully I can go back to talking normally afterwards, bc it was brought to my attention by multiple people that I am not talking normally, but rather with a "closed mouth," and it was very visible to Med (and the xray place) that I can't open my mouth very far. Oh well, here goes...just another adventure to add to my blog.

In other news, I was recruited by a fellow Volunteer in my region to write an article for the quarterly newsletter about the life of a new PCV from the "things NOT to do in the first 3 months at site," including having a 104.3 degree fever the day before Installation, drinking salt water for 3 days straight, and falling off a sharet. I'm taking as many other ideas as possible to add to this so that the article isn't just a biography of my life here already, lol.

mardi 17 juin 2008

Overdue Post

So I realized that I haven't actually blogged about my family and living situation at site. I've referenced it and there are multiple letters en route to different people in the States about my family, but nothing for the general B's Blog-Reading Public, if you can call it that.

So basically, my family is gigantic...probably the size of the entire village in reality, plus the surrounding villages due to cousins marrying, etc. However, I don't call them all my family, though in this culture, everyone is your brother, sister, uncle, mom, dad, etc, esp if they share the last name as you and Diouf is a very popular Serere name, so I have a lot of relatives. There are about 50 people who live on my compound, and that's not an exageration. From what I can understand, there are two very old men (each the head of the 2 main large families at the compound, one's my "dad" and the other thinks he's my husband), 2 very old women (one is my "mom" and the other I don't really know where she fits in the picture), 4 babies being breastfed (loose estimates in age: 2 months, 8 months, 11 months, and 15 months), about 20 kids between the ages of 2 and 10, a few early adolescent girls, about 10 guys in their late teens to early 20s, 8 "moms" (ie women of childbearing age with kids ranging from probably 25-35, with one who is probably about 45), an unknown amount of men/husbands (bc some of my "host brothers" have more than one wife and some of the wives also have husbands in Dakar or otherwise away and I haven't met them or figured out which men who are always around actually live at the compound, and maybe a few random other people thrown into the lot. It's a lot of people and means each meal bowl usually has between 8 and 12 people and there are probably about 3 bowls (at least) for each meal for each side of the compound, depending on the time of day and side of the compound.

These "sides" of the compound I'm referring to are the two large families that live at my compound but I haven't yet figured out how they are actually related. One side is the Dioufs (my "real" family) and the other side, technically, are the Gnings--both VERY Serere last names. The families seem to interact well together, based on my current understanding, but I just cannot figure out where the Gnings came from. No clue, but give me some time.

My hut is a 3m x 4m cement room with two doors and no windows. . I’m still working on pimping out my pad, aka hut, and just today I bought fabric to hang from the beams in the roof to bring in color and help keep the dust and debris off me. I also want to paint the inside of it yellow and maybe get some fake flooring, quasi-tacky curtains, and battery-operated wall light…after I get a bed, somewhere to put my clothes, a table, and chair. It’s so overwhelming to even know where to start, not to mention having a limited budget, plus the fact that I need to be discreet about what and when I buy things so that I don’t flaunt the money that I do have

Wo, refiro okor es. Jegiim okor. Bugafuliim okor ndiiki.

You, you are not my husband. I don't have a husband. I do not want a husband right now.

I have this conversation multiple times a day with one of the old men at my compound. He calls me Fatou Mae and insists I am his wife. He's probably about 80 and when he calls me Fatou Mae, I call him George and remind him he's not my husband. Two days ago he insisted that my parents wrote him a letter saying "Khady Diouf is married to Momadou Ning." Yea, right...

It's hard to really tell how much my language is improving when I feel like I always have the same stagnant convos with people, about my husband, the fact I didn't eat enough (by Senegalese crazy standards), the names of animals, my husband, names of random objects, my husband, money money money, and my husband. I can understand a lot more, like if people are talking about me to each other (like saying what I said or whatever) or just generally talking, I can follow it a lot better. However, I feel like my own speaking abilities aren't necessarily improving as fast, such as vocab, grammar, or ability to ask questions. Odang odang...

Anyway, the past almost two weeks at site have been the longest I've been without having to go to Kaolack or otherwise stay away from my village overnight and it almost drove me crazy, for the good and bad. The past two weeks have seen many important events, such as:
1. My first village weddings (right after each other): ie creating even more of a reputation in my area for my dancing abilities. "Khady Diouf a wagaa o mbec!" aka Khady Diouf can dance
2. First trip to the Post Office, which also convinced me that I need to open a new PC post box in a different town that is just slightly easier to get to, though without good lunches and internet. That will probably come in September or October.
3. My first flat tire...haven't yet fixed it, but it happened 2km from my village and I wheeled it all of the way home
4. The possible start to the rainy season, in the form of a dust storm followed by rain. Oh yea, right after I hung my laundry up to dry....needless to say, I redid my laundry the next day
5. The discovery that the teachers are really cool and I think I'm going to try and work with them a lot. That, and they make really good lunches, though another Volunteer and I actually cooked for them an American-inspired meal which was awesome as well
6.The kids at my compound now call my "faap otew Khady," which litterally means "dad's woman/wife" but in actuality is the word "Aunt" one would use for his/her dad's sister. Now I'm crazy Aunt Khady it appears. They have also been bolder about coming into my room to see the few pictures that I've successfully hung from the roof beams of my hut, which I'm going to have to keep a tight reign on.
7. Finally having Village Bread and Peanut Butter, something that I've been craving as an alternate to millet and milk for breakfast. I'm soooo glad that I brought that jar of Skippy PB!
8. Being on the verge of losing my mind over crickets in my hut and it still not being totally complete...it was a rough week, I was annoyed, and made sure my counterpart knew I wasn't happy. Hopefully things will be done by my return on Saturday, and done well...b/c the fence pieces hastily installed last week nearly toppled over with the storm this past week. Fab...
9. Seeing people from my Stage again! The Dakar region had a retreat this weekend and so many from my Stage were at the Dakar regional house after so I was reunited with lots of friends, which was SOOO amazing.
10. I slept under a sheet and blanket for the first time since Philly...PC Med Hut has A/C! I slept soooo well!

Okay, that's about it for now. Maybe if the power is working tomorrow night (I'm planning on still being here then, let's be honest...), I'll remember other things that I wanted to blog about.

Miami + Paris = Dakar

Bonjour de Dakar! I'm sitting here in the posh PC Senegal Office using free internet and find myself forgetting all of the things I had planned on blogging about over the past two weeks--my longest stint in the village thus far...which nearly drove me crazy. Anyway, I'm here in Dakar for xrays to follow-up from the sharet (or is it charret?) incident of a few weeks ago. Basically, it hurts to open my jaw to eat anything besides rice or millet (ie bread, etc), brush/floss, yawn, etc. It's also been pointed out to me by fellow Volunteers from my stage (ie who knew me before the incident) and our CD that I'm also not talking normally, like with a closed mouth, and Med was actually surprised that I couldn't open my mouth very far either. So, they are taking me to get some xrays and then figure things out, inshallah. I'm basically going to be away from site for a whole week since there's a Kaolack meeting on Friday, so I left Sunday AM with a nearby Volunteer and will be away from site until Saturday afternoon, probably. Oh well, gotta get things taken care of while I can. Part of me feels ridiculous that I'm letting some minor pain pull me from site so early on, but then there's the other side that says "hey, this is the body you will have for the rest of your life and PC is only 2 years, so get it figured out now."